ok i've been avoiding deviantART for a while (a few years actually), you guys probably noticed it... for those who are interested, please read.
my friends and teachers say i must keep a portfolio so i can show my art to people and future employers. from all the options deviantART is the best because of reasons, but i feel so bad here!
i feel asphixiated when i log in. like it's too crowded. the kind of art i used to like i just don't like it anymore. not even the style. it's just that i don't feel like the same person that used to get around here. i wish i could just delete this account and create a new one like a complete anonymous, but i feel attached to my nickname and don't want to lose it. lol
silly huh? i'm so stupid lol
at the same time, i miss here. i have a tumblr where i post recent sketches and traditional drawings but it's not the same. in deviantart we can find inspiration all the time, and meet new people... but i'm so different now... my style changed, my interests changed. there's so much to "clean up". don't know what to do.
also, i recently discovered i lost the original files (and even the .jpg files) of old drawings since 2007 - precisely when i got my first drawing tablet. can't describe the feelings, it's awful. i'm so sad )':
despite that i'm doing good with my personal life, college, boyfriend and everything. only my artistic side is just a bit messy.